My Heart and Yours

My Heart and Yours

July 26, 2010

So from the last book I just read, I've read just about 7,500 pages. I haven't really worked out in the past 2 weeks and that's perfectly fine with me. I'm missing my boyfriend so much!!! I might be seeing him and his family in September for labor day weekend. I can't wait to be back home. I'm kinda forgetting what my room looks like. =(
Gosh! There's just so much going on right now!!!

July 19, 2010

Well everybody, summer's coming to an end. I leave to go back home in a little over 10 days. I'm excited but at the same time kinda sad, and I'm not quite sure why. I miss my mom so bad and I want my own bed. My own house, kitchen, bedroom, dogs, city, everything. My chest tightens up when I think of home. I feel so far away and it seems like I'm not going back. But I will. I want to go to church with my friends. Make dinner before Mom gets home and have fun with my friends. I feel isolated from my own world. To be honest, I don't think I can stay here for another week. I love my dad and all, but sometimes it's too much. I once lived with my dad, but back then, I went on adventures with my brother and had school work to do. My dad and I grew apart. He's not the nurturing parent. The one that knows how to comfort me when I'm sick, or gives me advise when I need it the most, or even understands anything of the stuff I do or who I am. I just miss my mom. I want to go home. This feels like it's not a vacation anymore, if it even was. I love my sisters, and Monique too. I just want to be home. I want to laugh with my mom and get yelled at for not cleaning my room. I need to feel not empty... can anyone understand that?

Fire of Love

A fire that is carefully stoked and tended will not burn out.

...It will blaze so brightly that its warmth lingers in
your heart.

It will beckon your tired soul and embrace you in its
radiance.

The familiar smell of its smoke can bring a wistful
smile,

and the occasional blast of fireworks can take your
breath away.

Its sizzle can enthrall you; its flickering flames
entrance you.

The glowing embers provide comforting heat,

and the knowledge that a subtle movement or gentle
breeze

can rekindle a bonfire.

My love, the spark that ignited the day we met

remains an eternal flame.

~ Anonymous

June 29, 2010

Ummm.... Something?

went to the resort in disney world and have lots of fun! I'll have to put the pics on later, but it was really fun. Relaxing, lots of walking, and not much buying lol but it was good quality time that Ian and I got with our dad. I stayed up late and woke up early. Ate great food, and took a million pics! I don't really know what else to say. I bought my mom a post card and a crab magnet. SShh. Don't tell her. Dad got me a huge mickey mouse shirt and it just about goes to my knees. I got 19 comments of my hair, cause it was purple. And I wore a happy birthday pin. So I got 8 'Happy Birthdays' or something along the line. A few of them were by some really.... wait I shouldn't say that. lol Never mind. =] Well, all in all, I had fun and stood out like a sore thumb if I don't say so myself. =]

June 16, 2010

My Goal For The Summer


I kinda wanna look like her in some sort of way before THIS summer ends.

June 10, 2010

This Is What You Are To Me

You're the thought that starts each morning
the conclusion to my day.
You are all in I do
and everything I say.
You're the smile on my face
the twinkle in my eye.
The warmth inside my heart
and the fullness in my life.
You're the hand laced im mine,
and the coat upon my back.
My friend, my love
my shoulder to lean on.
You're my silly, mature, caring
thoughtful, bright and honest guy.
The one who holds me tightly
when I need to cry.
You're the dimple to my cheek
the ever constant tingle in my soul
The voice that makes me weak
the hapiness of my life.
You are all I've ever wanted.
You are all I need
You are all I've dreamed of
You are all this to me

June 08, 2010

Worked Out!!!

so today, my father had me working my butt at the park. i did biceps, triceps, shoulders, and abs. plus about 2 miles of running. then he made us walk back to our house, 1.5 miles away. so it was a pretty good workout. :) i secretly had a little fun.

SUMMER!!!!!

it's been about 3 weeks or so since i got out of school and it's officially been my first week in florida. i'm having a great time and love the hot weather. last saturday we had becca's graduation party. Totally fun!!! we ate lots of food and drinks togo around twice and then some. most everyone swam for the most part though. later on that night when most of the adult guests had got, we went to the neighborhood park and played a huge game of hide and go seek. but it was my complicated than that. It was the best fun that night :) we were all sweaty and gross. so when all 23 of us teens plus one adult (my dad) got home most of us jumped into the pool and swam for hours. the water got cold so we all got out and either watched a movie or just hung out and talked. Justin (one of becca's friends) was teaching me how to play poker when austin called me back. we talked for a while and i wanted to cry cause he's going through some stuff right now. but other than that, austin's rockin' the world. he's working more hours, plus going to summer school so he can move to colorado so we can be together for my senior year in high school and on. anyway, the party was great and there were 17 teenagers sleeping all over the house. yesterday i dyed my hair purple and blonde but i just look like peanut butter & jelly. that's my new nick name :) i've been working out with my dad, or at least trying to. :)
everything's going well and my mom and i talk regularly. well, i gotta go. it's eatin' time! bye!

May 15, 2010




this is what i'll be doing in 9 days

One Week Till Summer

oh my gosh! i'm so excited! i have finals this next week and then i'm out on friday! i cant believe that it's gone by so fast! it feels like its still march. this summer will be officially my one year anniversery having this blog. :) i cant wait to go to florida to see my dad for 2 months!!!! i get to go see Austin the first monday of summer :) i'm only there for a day, but at least i get to see him :) i havent seen him since january 19th. this summer i'm dying my hair blonde andn putting blue, purple and hot pink high lights in it :) i'm running a lot thius summer with my dad and training for being on the swim team next year. im not excited for it, but it'll help me get in shape. :) well i'm going to go babysit for my moms friend cause its her night to have her bday party. its going to be a long night.

April 27, 2010

Happiness makes life brighter

What It Be

Prom was last Saturday. I went. It was fly. I had amazing fun, and danced like crazy. But now i'm paying for it. lol My calves hurt painfully, and Joy stepped on my foot with her heel. So now i have a huge bruise on my the top of my foot. I got lots of stuff at after prom too! it was totally fun. and tomorrow i dont have school! woohoo! im sleeping in. then hangin' with my older friend Rain. :)

April 22, 2010

So Make A Mistake :)


Hey it's Thursday!!!

Meaning Prom's Saturday. This Saturday. And I'm going! yay!!!! i'm so freakin happy! I'm just going with my friends too. :) I can't wait. Sad part is, Joy lost my ticket, so she has to buy another one for me. I'm barrowing one of Joys' dresses, and I dont have any money to buy anything extra. So I'm wingin it. LOL
Anyway, my grades are getting back up. My lowest grade is a 70. something and PC apps II. But that'll go up once Ms. Smith puts the test grades in. :) I'm so happy!

April 16, 2010


Who's crazy enough not to love this face?? It's gorgeous!!! LOL yes i'm weird. dont judge me. :)

Cause you're the only one that can make me happy :)

April 12, 2010

Words That Come To Mind When I Think of You


Monday....

Alrighty! so today wasn't so bad... for a Monday. Last night I decided to tell Austin that I still love him and that I want to be with him. We're dating again (: He's happy, I'm happy, our friends our happy for us. I also might be going to see Austin in a little over 3 weeks for his birthday. He's turning 16! And all he wants to do is see me. He's a total sweetheart. That's why I love him so much. I think he could be it. THE one. I mean, we talk about baby names, houses, our future family. scenes we can see playing around in our heads about our futures. He's makes everything better just by saying that he misses me. How did I get something good out of a terrible experience?

April 09, 2010

Love Me Forever by Tonya

Three little words
That seem so simple

Love me forever
Seems easy enough to do

Love me forever
Thats all im asking from you

Love me forever
Never saying we're through

Love me forever
And let me love you
This just about says it all. :)

No Matter What...


Please don't ever let me go.
I've found my home,
The place where I want to be.
I've looked for you for fifteen years.
Please say i can always stay here.

I may want to run and hide sometimes,
But I can't do either one.
For I have found my special place with you.
Even though we have both been hurt,
We still have found love together.
Please don't ever let me go.
Promise me?

April 06, 2010

My Kitty

This is my kitty. she's pretty, but don't be tricked. She's as feisty as a bear! And I have scars to prove it. :) I love her so so so much! Her name's Lilly. We don't know how out she is, but that's okay. She's just cute.... kinda. lol Oh, and she likes grass. And my little dog Booh likes to chase her around the house. So yeah... This is my kitty.

My Little Ninja


YAY! i finally realized that I have my own ninja! Although his hair is really poofy. :) ha! and the funny thing is, he's my little brother! Ain't that the cutest thing you ever did see??? Oh and by the way, he's 11 soon to be 12. not like 16 or anything. And no girls, this ninja is not available. :)

Busy Tuesdays Are The Worst

Well today, seemed really busy at least. I had karate today. Which was good for me. I dont know..... It just seems like more and more is added to my day. I guess i'm in one of those teenager moods. It doesn't help me at all in life. Jeez! It seems like life keeps getting worse. I know I already said that, but c'mon! Can't I get a break yet??

April 04, 2010

Ummm....


So yeah, this is a car. It's not mine.. but I like it. It's kinda pretty. But I don't want it. it's not my dream car. I just think it's pretty. And it's a Mustang :)

Emo's Can Love Too

Oh and she's in converse. :)

Favorite Quote

What's minnie without Mickey
What's Tigger without Pooh
What's Spongebob without Patrick

What's me without you