Officially A Sophomore

Well everybody, summer's coming to an end. I leave to go back home in a little over 10 days. I'm excited but at the same time kinda sad, and I'm not quite sure why. I miss my mom so bad and I want my own bed. My own house, kitchen, bedroom, dogs, city, everything. My chest tightens up when I think of home. I feel so far away and it seems like I'm not going back. But I will. I want to go to church with my friends. Make dinner before Mom gets home and have fun with my friends. I feel isolated from my own world. To be honest, I don't think I can stay here for another week. I love my dad and all, but sometimes it's too much. I once lived with my dad, but back then, I went on adventures with my brother and had school work to do. My dad and I grew apart. He's not the nurturing parent. The one that knows how to comfort me when I'm sick, or gives me advise when I need it the most, or even understands anything of the stuff I do or who I am. I just miss my mom. I want to go home. This feels like it's not a vacation anymore, if it even was. I love my sisters, and Monique too. I just want to be home. I want to laugh with my mom and get yelled at for not cleaning my room. I need to feel not empty... can anyone understand that?